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Have you
ever walked down the street and from the corner of your
eye, you notice a beautiful, tall, blonde - brunette - redhead
with golden skin & legs that never seem to end? You
try to get a closer look, but the harder you try, the more
it seems too good to be true. Great curves, curves that
could cause a 10 car pile up. You finally get the nerve
to strike up a conversation and when your dream goddess
turns around your hopes, dreams and any thoughts of getting
laid crumble.. What you thought was a woman, was really
a man!!! Well... That is the nightmare I have to go through
from time to time on..
"Cheech's
Yard"
Intake
- 1st Entry
Lights
Out - 2nd Entry
Lock
Down - 3rd Entry
Paths
We Choose - 4th Entry
Paying
A Debt - 5th Entry
Does anyone
realize how much time is wasted, where I am? I am not going
to go into any detail about what it is I do to occupy my
time, and I understand that what I did to find myself in
this situation, was my decision.
What i want
to know, though, is me wanting to better myself, not enough?
I expect not, but without the proper education, how much
does society expect me to change? Throughout my short lifetime,
I have heard that an individual simply cannot break a habit
or change overnight. In my opinion, that is totally untrue.
If you have the will power and common sense to reach a goal,
you will succeed. If you have faith in yourself or you believe
you can do it, and stick with it, you can change. No matter
what obstacles you face and you are determined to change,
why can't you change?
This goes
beyond me or me being in prison. As much as you may think,
this website was constructed for me to help you the reader,
yes, I benefit from it as far as knowing it helps
put different perspectives out there. I get issues off my
chest, and try to reach a conclusion on how to deal with
people. I know some of you, who may not approve of what
I do, are thinking that I will be back to my old ways upon
release. Well for all of you pessimists out there, grab
ahold of this concept....
Every night,
when my t.v. shuts off... I sit and ponder where I have
taken my life. Yeah I have done a lot of things in my life
that were foul. And I will say one thing about that... I
regret nothing. I am not some heartless bastard (sorry Tia),
but if it wasn't for my trials and tribulations with drugs,
crime, and death, amongst all of the good things in my life,
things I wouldn't want to change, I would still be on a
path of self-destruction. Yes, I deserve what I got, and
I am not necessarily complaining about that. What I am complaining
about is all the potential, along with time, is being wasted.
Not to boast,
but I am a very bright individual, who, unfortunately, made
some bad decisions. Here is my point, I often see on the
news or read about individuals getting out of an institution,
being judged or questioned about their release. "Is
this person ready to get out?", "was this person
rehabilitated enough?". You question the same system
that put us behind these walls, these bars.
The question
you should be asking is, "is prison the right choice?".
Society speaks of prison as a "breeding ground for
crime and drugs". Well if that is the case, why would
you send someone to prison and expect them to come out any
different? It's like putting a kid in a candy store. He
is going to indulge, no doubt.
Let's go
back to my initial question. The reason I ask "Does
anyone realize how much time is wasted, where I am?"
is this.. Some of the most brilliant minds are here. The
problem is that we are not given the opportunity to use
them properly. Our choices are limited, and we do not have
a chance to exercise our minds. Everything is "self-help".
If you want to learn something, you have to go about finding
out yourself. So when it comes to people changing overnight,
I see it everyday. All we have is time, and we work with
it. We try to better our way of living, at all times, and
we succeed.... Because
we have no choice, no one is going to do it for us. Perseverance
and determination goes a long way. So next time you want
to criticize or make judgement... Put yourself in our shoes.
Until next time... It's time to lockdown!
"Big
Daddy Cheech"
For questions,
advice, to comment, to debate or for a Pen-Pal write to
"Cheech" at the following address:
Inmate
Moreno
ADC#
164110 / 5 H 6
Unit
Central
ASPC-Florence
P.O. Box 8200
Florence,
AZ 85232
Or send e-mail
here and we will
forward your letters to "Cheech" (write "Cheech's
Yard" in subject line).
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